My dance recital....

[blue_lotus13]

Yesterday I participated in my first dance recital in an unknown number of years. Our piece was a veil dance that was about three minutes long. It was a great experience, as always, because I was born to perform, and I LOVE performing.

However, there were a few things I learned from this performance. For some reason, I can be incredibly modest and almost prudish in some areas. I find this really weird. I write sexy poetry and like to say off-the-cuff things, but sometimes I get really uncomfortable by other people's sexuality or nudity. For example, one time I was talking to my neighbour while she was wearing a towel, and I just felt really uncomfortable the whole time. In another instance, I was in a yoga class with a guy who wasn't wearing a shirt, and I just felt really uncomfortable and wanted him to cover up.

I don't really like wearing bikinis, so I opted for a modest tank top for my belly dance costume. BIG MISTAKE. Once I saw all the women dressed up in the pretty sparkly bras, I was really sorry that I hadn't gone that route. It was actually so empowering to see all the different sizes and shapes of women, sporting their bellies with extra padding, stretch marks, etc, not being ashamed. In my next recital, I'll definitely be rocking the bra and get over my own self consciousness.

The other thing was how incredibly lonely I felt during the performance. The attendance fee was a bit high, so I didn't ask any of my friends to come watch the show. This was a mistake. I felt really lonely and sad afterward as I was watching all my dancer friends hug their moms, boyfriends or family. It kind of sucked. Next time, I might ask a couple friends to attend. I was thinking about it this morning and realized that I would have many, many friends who would attend in a heartbeat if I was giving a reading. It was just the price that stopped me from asking people. Hmmm.

Comments

[listersgirl]

Yay! That's fabulous.

I've felt the same way about dance recitals and the high price. I think the trick is to ask difference people each time, spread the spending. :D

[blue-lotus.livejournal.com]

I just learned that one of my friends has probably never been to a dance recital, so I will ask her next time.

[donrickles.livejournal.com]

You are so cool! I'm really impressed that you did this.

I have the same issue with other people's sexuality some times.

[lueread.livejournal.com]

Farpotshket told me about the tv show "How to Look Good Naked". I highly recommend it to you also. I wish I was a brave and felt as good about my body as some of the women who appear on that show do. Also, about the recital. Woo hoo! You rock! I can completely relate to how you feel about not having any people attend. I did one dance recital in my life: when I was 16. I regret asking my mom not to go. At the time I wanted it to be low key and no big deal. However, now I wish my family members had been there to see me dance and support me. Perhaps they would have talked me into continuing beyond one year.